我觉得当你捆扰到某些事情 比如未来过去都是没有意义和根据的 抓不住碰不到 只有活在当下才能将现在变成完美没有遗憾的回忆 我曾不懂纠结在此  我只能说是我落伍毕竟在这个世界上 人以群分的 做个高尚的人吧 其实大家都会讲的 有良心的人坏不到哪里去的

 感情也是一样 空窗期了好久 谈的恋爱总让我不满足或者直白的说就像没谈 有人对我讲你还小你好小 有人和我讲你打算读书到什么时候毕业几岁了都 我都不管了 可我当下想做个流浪汗 感情的事情 没有谁对谁错 宽恕下什么都解决了 毕竟我也不喜欢哭着说他是坏蛋！

hey don't say anything to me

hey just get around to me

hey put your hands up and say goodbye to me

hey my love will disappear in the air when I am  breath

hey don't say goodbye to me

hey don't answer my question

hey never make a date with me

hey never wanna kiss eachother anymore

hey but I got a little bit love inside

hey I look but I don't really see

hey I touch myself in a long way

hey I missed you and I loveed you a little bit but little was enough!

hey I say goodbye to you  Here I am now!

I say feel free to do whatever I want ,I told everyone You can sitll to something just feel free do do whatever you want?

Is that fucking right? Or am I single cell ? Just forget about it ,course I tell myself again to do whatever I want ..It's kinda funny! 

Or am I have to bring into full play tell myself he gone? that's fucking right!

JUST A BIG JOKE BUT ITSN"T LAUGHABLE!

假善良的可怕 假正经的可怕 假瞎掰的可怕 满脑子的假更可怕

在这样的一天，好倒霉 我填错了支票日期 我家的狗拉了大便 我又胖了几公斤 矛盾越来越深 有可能也不在乎 讽刺极了 ！

今天可是6月1日 刚有人和我说节日快乐 可显然那不属于我的 是我不削 还是不得不服真的大了 我一直有自己的原则 即使旁人看来是那样的微不足道 最近我慢慢的感觉到 是不是做所有的事情都应该要自私一点 所有的所有 不过我想那是在不触碰别人的范围之内自私的 可是我斟酌了下 如果真要做个自私的人怎样才不会触碰到别人的低线 我的那条线都快被踩懒了多少次了？ 是的 做一个自私的人盘算着自己的事夹带着自己的利益活在这个社会里 我告诉自己有时小心点 耐心点 言多必失点 会好很多 最近知道好多 也快乐了好多 毕竟我还是想要做个勤劳忙碌的人的！

my mood down down down ,I wait for you  I don't know why course I can't At this temperature you could take over my mind.
He draws me in, I'm powerless.
He possesses an enchantment.

Tell me I'm forgiven.
He calls, don't know how I fell under his spell.
Lately I've been driven. he smiles, an enchantment.

I wait for you.I'm mesmerized this love is like a potion in disguise.
I'd tightrope walk with a blindfold on my eyes.I can't escape, or so it seems.I'd run away, he's in my dreams.
He possesses an enchantment.

I know, he knows, he calls, I go, I know.
This could be an enchantment.

Why don't you tell me I'm forgiven?
He calls, don't you know how I fell under his spell.
I'm forgiven...lately I've been driven.
He smiles and I give in,
An enchantment.

 

在deventer一个土了掉渣的小城市 刚去那完全不能适应乡土生活的我无法接受 记得那时 做在那张不属于我的床上发呆了1个多小时 连手中的行李都还拿着 同房间的越南女孩安慰我说 每天都很想很想那个所谓的家 其实对我来讲没差 就是落差太大 幸好在为数不多的上海人中认识了2个比较投缘的 开始了夜夜煮通宵 在你们的房间打牌吃饭 过年的时候带上了我一个 每天上课的时候我也有专程的司机 虽然那是自行车 但是我还是想起来很心暖的 在你们的厨房嬉笑打闹烧饭菜 在周姐姐的房间不脱外套的睡她床上 看她的电影 抢她的零食 霸占她的电脑 去citycenter半夜抢棉花糖和冰激凌吃 我只想说其实在deventer我混的满开心的 虽然那真的土了点 可是我觉得我们的人变的老实了 我很想你们很想很想 想在聊聊八卦 做贼心虚一下 想一起坐在地上吃不卫生的火锅和蛋糕 想吃你们买的烂西瓜 想很多很多！

I don't wanna lose control but then again I think I wanna lose control! 很能体现我的心情尽管在当下也好或者是一瞬间！

我常纠结使自己不安阶段性的 如果给我一顆糖的话那会稍微的平静点

我常为往事纠结不堪 甚至不管记忆的真实性 害怕它越边越模糊

我常提醒自己继续前进 可是我觉得当下的我像个傻B

我常改变知道自己要的是什么

我常和自己说做女人要大智若愚不要大愚弱智

我常 通常这样的我常总让我越陷越深 所以 I wanna lose control but then again I think I don't wanna lose control!

I call powers of 10 like our life right now ! Please CHELSEA please do not live like that ! I know I am so small because I am powers of 10 I know I was already dig out doubt! BUT DON"T LIVE LIKE THAT REALLY!

看过威尔史密斯的 当幸福来敲门 和七生有幸 其实我不管翻译的怎样对不对 有一点还满奇怪的就是没有英语和中文的同步文章翻译 导致我在看的过程中一遍翻译单词结构一遍欣赏 不过确实好看和感人 我觉得这社会的几率绝对是小的渺茫 他的语气说话的腔调毫无疑问和我心中的尼古拉斯凯奇并列第一 我觉得他们连说话都是一种艺术！

I hate our life like that , it's easier get into a scarp than get out of one , I don't wanna talk about how it is just be done ...

Change my way find the new way keep go on  , I wanna say sorry to everyone  do the unfair thing again and again ,but nothing could change and then ? I really don't know empty room empty physical empty mind empty thinking empty single cell  I am afraid ! I god deep feeling everytime just so emotinal , like different kinds of views around me let me really carzy , what ever the predicament it may be ,I will be staying right place to fight I am what I am like before but only  got more experience more age more mind!

躺在床上发呆！我觉得我快要empty了！希望和往常一样friendly！因为那很siriously！

今天的心情我有点不大爽的 真的很想说一句 黑头发胖be What the motherfucker think you are ? 应该说中国人大体年轻还是说荷兰鬼是瞎子！我应该开心的 你个胖女人说我看上去像10几岁的小孩 不过天煞的你竟然和我说 no only the netherlands 滚伐 ！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！我就要说英语可以伐 ！！！！！！！！！！！你都对我不尊重了 我还有必要尊重你伐 尊重是互相的 我现在的比较孬的性格会忍住 但是我还是要在这里骂骂你 气死我了！

废话少说 真实的世界是不需要那么多虚伪的语音来掩饰那顆荒唐的心的 我很少有安全感说实话我一直都是 今天也是finally觉得的 社会变了大家的交流越目的性的快狠准 那样很好 又很不好 是人变的简单了 还是越来越复杂 简单到把target全盘托出还是复杂到少言快语 总结是 当我分析一件事的时候通常是没怀着目的性的谈论目的性的 而又纠结其中 做人难做女人也难做个好女人更难 善良的外表外总归有顆不大过分自私的心的 然而可以说只是百分比的比例不同而已 毕竟我们不是雷锋 所以我真的是个希望自己到头来幸运的人 这很苛刻似乎对别人不公平 但是fair unfair 怎么一字一句说的清楚 我想要好好的过日子和混日子 不想社会太多的变质化 人与人的交流简单化 anyway我知道自己又在做梦了 所以我真的要说 做人真的难 我发现现在好多上海人都喜欢说一个词｛真心｝很好 那很好 到底是不是真的真心 我要打个问号的？起码我说真心的时候是百分百的 不是为了滥竽充数的 那才叫真的真心！唠叨了很多 的确是每个人的价值观感情观都存在着一定大小的偏差 所以这也是为什么 人与人 国家与国家之间 存在着某些矛盾 就像男人劈腿女人脚踏两条船 现在的我会觉得很正常 说到着经典的话又要出来了 感情的事情说不清楚的 每一天我们的思想都在变 处人处事处物 深层点的话应该是提升自我修养但也包括一部分装比着！我想说的是什么 我也不知道 并且乱说的很开心 现在的男女圈子真的有很大的问题的 男人你能接受一夜情吗？ 那也是对人对年龄层对价值层的 你能接受网恋吗？ 信则有不信则无 你能接受异地恋吗？让时间来决定一切吧 你能接受劈腿吗？我能 我很有能耐 因为社会变了 我们的大环境变了 即使我不是这样的人即使我很纯 那也还是要知道一点！最主要的问题是 假都假 假的很！还不如我们爸妈那个年代那时来的纯真 社会是进步了摩登了国际化了 有些小年轻的脑袋也应该要洗一洗了 不要在做上海的小市民了 那样我真的很不削 发挥自己的潜能吧 ！不要就想到买买名牌夜店装装比那些的了 就算是一小部分我也会觉得骄傲跟开心的 大家have fun 元宵节快乐吧即使我今天没吃圆子也压根忘记了 啊哈哈哈！

i don't mind it
i don't mind at all
it's like you're the swing set
and i'm the kid that falls
it's like the way we fight
the times i cry
we come to blows
and every night
the passion's there
so it's gotta be right, right?

no i don't believe you
when you say don't come around here no more
i won't remind you
you said we wouldn't be apart
no i don't believe you
when you say you don't need me any more
so don't pretend to not love me at all

i don't mind it
i still don't mind at all
it's like
one of those bad dreams
when you can't wake up
it's like you've given up
you've had enough
bu i want more
no i wont stop
cos i just know
you'll come around, right?

no i don't believe you
when you say don't come around here no more
i won't remind you
you said we wouldn't be apart
no i don't believe you
when you say you don't need me any more
so don't pretend to not love me at all
just don't stand there and watch me fall
cos i, cos i still don't mind at all
it's like way we fight
the times i cry
we come to blows and every night
the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?

no i don't believe you
when you say don't come around here no more
i won't remind you
you said we wouldn't be apart
no i don't believe you
when you say you don't need me any more
so don't pretend to not love me any more
i don't believe you

 

If you know something have to face to face  just let it be

If you can't control than have to happen  just let it go

Don't push  heart it may be inside broken

Don't push  physical cause I was already tired

Out as enter into deep feeling let my mind growing  faster

Out as leave that I don't wanna leave boring place

Such as I wanna crying everymoment but I could keep!

Such as put my hands up smilling say goodbye for my old dream!

I'll be still missing and loving <you >

 

 

Every one simple every one mind easy life and love nomatter what kinds of love , I ought to know you didn't mean to break my heart is ti really over now ? or a new start ? So every one living for what loving for what learning for what and get baby for what I understand when some onte got baby then this guy understood how limited time this guy got ! Like us we are teenage we even don't think about it but one day we need to know ! Life is not easy !Life needs peace ! we need setting value.  She and He likes deep !  PLEASE tell some one you like it or exliked love or exloved your family friends some one you wanna say Merry X'mas ! I hope your enjoy your life your every moment !

Finally I understand why all the man like use excuse instead of deep feeling,ofcourse everyone do not wanna be a lier? But the specialist situation let us be more friendly and more kindly,sometimes we made by some one prisoner but sometime we need stay at right place and only one person, don't know why don't know why because some thing we can't control by ourselves . I say old saying I miss you missing you until I die just like is liked love is loved I hope miss is missing not missed!

我的真心 都发生在你们身上 我只想说 I love your guys Your love in my life when I was young Your guys makes me happy when I was scared Your love just like a lot of kisses on my lip! 最后我想对你们说 What's up fucking guys ?hahahahahahahaha

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too much 我的口味总是太重，我不知道现在的人怎么想的，大概大家的思想也重口味了，总之我觉得这个社会同质化了，节奏快了，甚至有点过度变质,这也是个原因为什么大家都喜欢夜夜夜夜，到底留洋的人会被当地的国家同质化伐，我一直处于anti and pro的状态的，更加不大喜欢去故意explain spicalist reason,大概这点我有点俗伐。有很多事情会让我小心翼翼的去处理到最后还是糟糕了，或许是我想的有点多，但是是更加有人想的更加多，大概这是上海人的总特征伐，我有点扯远了，我只想说 有些事情让我很无厘头。

我越发越觉得我不适合努力勤奋的搜集新闻了，越看越觉得害怕搞笑无厘头，可我的好奇心总免不了了解下，有人破产了 有人发疯了 有人杀人了 更加有更多的人不讲道理了，不知道我形容的对不对 但我们这个社会越是法制越是和谐 但相反来说越来越不讲道理了，我们世界的龙头老大美国倒下了还需要多久能够回复元气，国内的人总说更自己没关系 但现在好像也是勒着裤腰带过日子了 再也没人买车买房买基金，我有个朋友帮我说股票好像他家好几辆车也开走了，市场烂了，出口更烂了 我还是希望能够好起来的，大多数我们国内的农民企业家是黑心老板赚黑心钱的 现在这个社会有钱在口袋才是硬道理 银行我想那也应该只变成个“双保险”听说美国的银行利息是10percent 谁能够大胆去博一博呢？我看新闻好像看到国家要大肆发展大中国，那我想应该把老百姓的口袋塞满才是硬道理 而不是各人吧 少去模仿 少去跟风 少去油嘴滑舌 我看好50年之后的 中国！